Truth is, I dont want anything so much at all.
I'm actually glad that I'm not craving for anything at all! This is the time to celebrate. Cause, I'm actually satisfied and contented with what I have :)
I just turned 18 early on this month, and I'm proud to say that, I had fun on my birthday. :D
Here's the links to some pictures on that day. Lol! (I don't have a camera..)
http://nicavictoria.multiply.com/photos/album/48/Happy_birthday_Lea_
http://denica017.multiply.com/photos/album/18/sis_18
My birthday = Happiness. though it had sooo much to do with boys and crushes, the fact that there were friends who would actually be there with me and let me know that I could always, always count on them really made my day. So I couldn't ask for anything more..
I've never really based my moods on material things. But I have, in most cases, done that exactly with my acads..
ORGCHEM:
I used to say that you were my life now. But, I believe I've reached the point wherein I can accept my destiny (whatever it may be) with you. Be it pass or fail, I don't want to stress myself over you. I know, for others, this may seem like a really big deal. I mean, I used to think that way too. But, as I've said.. Maybe, just maybe I've accepted my weakness. All I can do is turn it into strength. No matter what everyone else says, I choose to let go. And let God take over.
DIGICAM + IPOD + CAR + DRIVING LICENSE:
They can wait. Really, they can. Haha.
I told you I'm not much of a material girl.. They're merely things, that can be gained, and then lost too. :) I heard one of my friends lost her digicam and it was.. the cam I was dreaming of. SONY CYBERSHOT TOUCH SCREEN. And she even knew who took it, but she can't get it back.. Sigh. Moving on, nothing has been said about me getting an ipod or anything like it for that matter.. I was just assuming that I'd get one if only I asked really really hard for it. LOL. But then, yeah. Let's just all leave that to chance. :)) And my driver's license I'm too busy to be working on it now.. Though I really really want to learn how to drive completely right away, it would be sooo much better if I know a car came after my *DL*. And that's not happening anytime soon..
NEW PLACE TO STAY:
Lol. I'm so fed up with my tiny tiny room.. It really is becoming too small for the three of us roommates. Sigh. I actually already found another unit on the fifth floor in the same building, and it only costs 14 thousand. Its got two bedrooms and is really spacious, and the best part about it is its so freakin' cheap! Not like all the other condominium units we've seen :)) I soo wanna transfer there already. Lol.
SUMMER:
This I can't wait to happen :)) The last days of the semester are the busiest, saddest and most toxic days of the semester. But, what happens after all this is the most awaited. Yeahhhh! Really, I'm itching to! Maybe this is what I want so much. :]
BOYFRIEND:
Now this is funny. I bet so many people believe that this is just a joke. And actually it is. It's just that, sometimes pressure gets to you and you think to yourself so many people end up marrying the person they met while they were in college. Ehhh.. I'm ni college and still. Lol. I shouldn't be in a hurry. After all, I haven't found anyone who I want to spend the rest of my life with yet anyway. :))
IN WISDOM, IN STATURE AND IN FAVOR WITH GOD AND MEN:
I want to be back in His arms. I don't want to run away anymore. Sometimes, it's just really hard. Especially when you don't feel like, that He's there. I mean, you know He is, but you can't feel it. It's probably cause I want to feel something tangible. Like, I can feel it, I can hear Him.. But, I realized that sometimes, you do things cause you believe, even when you don't see anything. That's what I should believe. That's what I should do, and then, God will make His presence felt. Keep believing Laeng. Stop running away. You know He loves you more than anything. You know You do too.
I remembered my only wish on my birthday. I asked God for a change of heart. And now, He just reminded me of that wish, and He promises to fulfiill it. But I need to believe that He can, and that I should work for anything I believe in. So, rejoice! Be glad. Though the sorrow may last for the night, but the joy comes in the morning.
I'm actually glad that I'm not craving for anything at all! This is the time to celebrate. Cause, I'm actually satisfied and contented with what I have :)
I just turned 18 early on this month, and I'm proud to say that, I had fun on my birthday. :D
Here's the links to some pictures on that day. Lol! (I don't have a camera..)
http://nicavictoria.multiply.com/photos/album/48/Happy_birthday_Lea_
http://denica017.multiply.com/photos/album/18/sis_18
My birthday = Happiness. though it had sooo much to do with boys and crushes, the fact that there were friends who would actually be there with me and let me know that I could always, always count on them really made my day. So I couldn't ask for anything more..
I've never really based my moods on material things. But I have, in most cases, done that exactly with my acads..
ORGCHEM:
I used to say that you were my life now. But, I believe I've reached the point wherein I can accept my destiny (whatever it may be) with you. Be it pass or fail, I don't want to stress myself over you. I know, for others, this may seem like a really big deal. I mean, I used to think that way too. But, as I've said.. Maybe, just maybe I've accepted my weakness. All I can do is turn it into strength. No matter what everyone else says, I choose to let go. And let God take over.
DIGICAM + IPOD + CAR + DRIVING LICENSE:
They can wait. Really, they can. Haha.
I told you I'm not much of a material girl.. They're merely things, that can be gained, and then lost too. :) I heard one of my friends lost her digicam and it was.. the cam I was dreaming of. SONY CYBERSHOT TOUCH SCREEN. And she even knew who took it, but she can't get it back.. Sigh. Moving on, nothing has been said about me getting an ipod or anything like it for that matter.. I was just assuming that I'd get one if only I asked really really hard for it. LOL. But then, yeah. Let's just all leave that to chance. :)) And my driver's license I'm too busy to be working on it now.. Though I really really want to learn how to drive completely right away, it would be sooo much better if I know a car came after my *DL*. And that's not happening anytime soon..
NEW PLACE TO STAY:
Lol. I'm so fed up with my tiny tiny room.. It really is becoming too small for the three of us roommates. Sigh. I actually already found another unit on the fifth floor in the same building, and it only costs 14 thousand. Its got two bedrooms and is really spacious, and the best part about it is its so freakin' cheap! Not like all the other condominium units we've seen :)) I soo wanna transfer there already. Lol.
SUMMER:
This I can't wait to happen :)) The last days of the semester are the busiest, saddest and most toxic days of the semester. But, what happens after all this is the most awaited. Yeahhhh! Really, I'm itching to! Maybe this is what I want so much. :]
BOYFRIEND:
Now this is funny. I bet so many people believe that this is just a joke. And actually it is. It's just that, sometimes pressure gets to you and you think to yourself so many people end up marrying the person they met while they were in college. Ehhh.. I'm ni college and still. Lol. I shouldn't be in a hurry. After all, I haven't found anyone who I want to spend the rest of my life with yet anyway. :))
IN WISDOM, IN STATURE AND IN FAVOR WITH GOD AND MEN:
I want to be back in His arms. I don't want to run away anymore. Sometimes, it's just really hard. Especially when you don't feel like, that He's there. I mean, you know He is, but you can't feel it. It's probably cause I want to feel something tangible. Like, I can feel it, I can hear Him.. But, I realized that sometimes, you do things cause you believe, even when you don't see anything. That's what I should believe. That's what I should do, and then, God will make His presence felt. Keep believing Laeng. Stop running away. You know He loves you more than anything. You know You do too.
I remembered my only wish on my birthday. I asked God for a change of heart. And now, He just reminded me of that wish, and He promises to fulfiill it. But I need to believe that He can, and that I should work for anything I believe in. So, rejoice! Be glad. Though the sorrow may last for the night, but the joy comes in the morning.
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