When He Calls.

God has this funny way of sewing bits and pieces of my cluttered and disorganized life into a beautiful blanket of goodness and sunshine.

Honestly, He's been doing so much spring cleaning in my heart and conscience lately. Unfortunately the boarder (that's me) who's renting and living in His own home is stubborn, obstinate and too preoccupied with her worthless attainables and goals. Still, the Master hasn't given up on me yet. He loves his servant so much He'd do anything just for me to continue serving Him and His household. And that's basically what this post is about. :)

My best friend invited me to the church she's recently been a member of, the Church of God in Dasmarinas. It's actually a huuuge church, not as enormous as the wooooah!-like churches of Metro Manila and Quezon City but still, huge with lots and lots of attendees and members. :) I was actually even hesitant to come, since I had an exam the next day and I just knew I hadn't studied so well for that exam. Still, my best friend insisted I come, saying church is the only place I should be in that time.

We arrived to COG slightly later than expected, praise gospel songs  and a multitude of singing voices were already blaring from inside the auditorium. We were ushered to our seats by a warm lady usher. The moment we walked on the aisle and I caught sight of the children up on that stage dancing along to the music my face lit up and a wide smile spread across my entire face. I couldn't concentrate on singing anymore. My eyes were fixed on the dancers. A few moments later, tears already welled up in my eyes, and I coulnd't do anything but cry. Lord, they're so happy. I used to be like one of them, honoring and glorifying you through dance. I used to be up on that stage too, dancing and praising You without any other care in the world.

I knew He was watching, looking over me and laughing at his foolish daughter, who was now crying like a baby. He won, He knew He won, He knew every reason for my tears, and He was pleased with what He's done to me. This is my desire, yes, to dance for You, to be a vessel of Your grace, prowess and unconditional love. He's shown me exactly what I've been wanting to do for the past year, what I've been missing for the past year, and what I will continue missing if I don't get back on track. Right now.

He just answered my simple prayer this year: to know the desires of my heart. Ugh. I've messed up a whole lot. And I'm sorry. I love Him. I keep toying and messing around but He still manages to outdo me and win me over. What else can I do but surrender to His will? And so, I am going back to the ministry. I am so going back to serving and glorifying Him alone.

*And the Master forgave His servant, for the seventy times seventh time.*